I’m really trying for this test. I’ve been looking at notes, watching videos, and trying to study for almost all of today (besides class, eating, and a nap I accidentally extended a little too long). I haven’t even played any games today.
But I’m still so confused. I still don’t understand everything and unless God decides to suddenly grant me knowledge, I’m not going to know everything for this test.
You’d think I learn. You would, wouldn’t you?
I hope my friends will tell me if I’m ever complaining about something that was completely my fault (if I didn’t know it).
I do this a lot, but I think I usually know when I’m doing it.
If I don’t realize it, please tell me T_T and if you’re not sure if I know it or not, just tell me anyways. Worst case scenario is that I’ll say “I know T_T”
Though I think I’ve gotten a lot better at not playing the “blame game”. Ironically, I think I grew a lot in this from playing video games…WUT IS LIFE
Ok now that I think about it, I shouldn’t complain ever (shouldn’t being the key word but still that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t try) so feel free to rebuke me if I complain. About anything. Ever. T_T
Somehow, we’ve shifted from “caring too much about what people think about us” to “not caring at all about what people think about us”. And honestly, I am ridiculously terrified of the latter attitude because if people don’t care about what others think, society and all it’s conventions will go straight out the window, people will start doing what they want, and the world will DESCEND INTO DARKNESS ooOOOoo. Oh wait, isn’t that happening already? I also really want to post about this on my other blog but I’m scared that people will hate me (because I will be indirectly referring to people who follow me because some of them post some really dumb quotes about not caring about what people think.
But maybe I shouldn’t care about what they think and post it anyways HUEHUEHUE
No but seriously I don’t know what to do T_T I think it’s something that really needs to be addressed, but I’m not quite sure if I would be the best person to post about it…should I post or not? T_T
I wish there was a way for me to let everyone know that I was in a bad mood and that they shouldn’t talk to me (besides ignoring them or being really rude or having to tell everyone that contacts me that I’m in a bad mood). Sort of like an away status…except I could put it up everywhere. So like when people tried to text me, they’d see this little message that’s like, “Jon’s in a bad mood right now and doesn’t want to talk to anyone kthxbye”
What happens a lot is that people say they’re bad at something without even trying at it. Especially school. Everyone says they suck at this subject or that subject, but they don’t study. They don’t do the work. They try to scrape by, and then complain/whine about how miserable their life is because their grades are bad.
I wonder why. (However, I do realize some people do actually try and just can’t seem to get it no matter what they do).
I realize I have done/still do this too. But I actually try and limit it to things that I have actually tried. Badminton? Played for 10+ years. Tennis? Played for 2+ years. French Horn? Played for 7 years. Piano? Played for 5 years. Music in general? Almost 14 years of my life. Games? Might as well be 5ever. Despite how whiny I am, I really have tried to stick with things. And I still haven’t found where my talents are yet.
That’s why nowadays, I don’t really say my classes are hard. Because honestly, if I really tried, they wouldn’t be that hard. Sure, they’re tedious and time consuming…but hard? Naw, not really. I haven’t gotten to the “hard” stuff yet. But I find my current classes hard simply because I don’t try.
Oops, somehow this came back to me. Back to my original point.
I wish people would stop complaining about things that they could change.
I wish I would stop complaining about things that I could change.
I wish for a lot of things.
on a random sidenote, some of you might be wondering why I’ve been posting on this blog so much lately (and if you’re not, that’s fine. move on :3) and it’s because I realize a lot of this stuff is like, angsty, immature, adolescent stuff. and because it’s talking about certain people who follow my other blog so whooopsie
I felt really lonely tonight. Scrolling down my friends list and realizing that all of the people I normally talk to (which isn’t any) weren’t on made me a little sad. Then one of my friends logged on and started telling me about what a bad day he had.
I’M SORRY I’LL NEVER FEEL LONELY AGAIN UGH T-T
My friend is stressing over a test.
She says if she fails it, she’ll feel really stupid.
She hasn’t been to class in over a week.
What am I supposed to think? I honestly don’t know how I’m supposed to approach this situation from a Christlike perspective. She’s not stupid (at least, in terms of book smartness), and I know she could do well if she studied more/went to class and actually tried. Instead, she goes out to hang out with friends the night before the test and decides to sleep and study the morning of the test. I can’t help but think that if she fails this test, she’ll really have no one to blame but herself. She didn’t do very well on the first test, and has been “stressing out” about this second one for a while now. But she doesn’t go to class. She goes out to play with friends.
What am I supposed to think? Honestly, it’s pretty annoying for me to listen to her complain about how she’s going to fail and how stupid she is, yet she doesn’t try. I actually have a lot of friends like this, and I used to be like this too. But man, I didn’t really realize just how annoying it was. Honestly, I was in the exact same position last semester. Maybe it takes a fall for them to learn.
Some of you might know who I’m talking about, but she’s not the only one. A lot of people do this and it’s really frustrating and I’m not quite sure how to handle it besides grabbing a megaphone and yelling “SHUT UP AND GET YOUR ACT TOGETHER”.
I don’t know how to handle these situations. It kind of sucks that I know exactly how they feel, but I don’t really know how to help them. So I just tell them “Good luck” with a fake smile on my face. And then I return to my cave to fume some more because people are STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID. Sometimes.
ok so this is probably going to sound judgemental
maybe because it sort of is
but these posts…THESE POSTS
“how others see you is not important…how you see yourself means everything”
PLEASE
THAT IS A VILLIAN’S MOTTO
SERIAL KILLER? NO, I’M JUST PUTTING THEM OUT OF THEIR MISERY. I DON’T CARE WHAT YOU SAY.
some people would probably say i’m “overthinking” things. or maybe taking things too literally. but this seems to happen a lot. I know what the author of the quote is trying to say (something along the lines of “don’t let other people define who you are”), but this quote is just TOO EXTREME. THINK ABOUT QUOTES BEFORE YOU REBLOG PLS.
PLS
or maybe i’m just in a bad mood idk
ok back to studying T_T
random note:I dislike people who are moody/can’t control their emotions. i.e., ME.
Love for all sounds great and everything…but I don’t think I could honestly say I love everyone all the time, though I wish I could.
Love for all? Equality for all? Tell that to your human nature and see how that goes.
Sigh. This is why I (we) need Jesus.
rantrantrantrant
i’m way too tired/lazy to actually type out what i want to rant about
so im just gonna get it out of my system
rantrantrantrant
grr im so angry
angry jon
rawr
just kidding guys i’m actually more depressed than i am angry (i think)
so maybe it’s like crai crai crai
sad jon
crai